day108, 8.51pm


yeah it's very clear that i have failed to keep this blog up-to-date, you can't blame me, i'm in year 12 now! its tough but i like to think i'm keeping up with the current, so far A, Bs and a D. 
anyway, i'm no longer going to update this blog BUTtox, so i leave you with my tumblr, yes i caved and signed up, it's not as bad as i first though, gifs are great.


http://i-like-snowpeas.tumblr.com/
i mainly reblog purrrty korean celebrity women ;)


good bye!


there is no next time on this blog i'm afraid.

day029, 1 59pm

hello a very elongated post here. after new years and all the festivities i had got rather lazy to do any blogging. though i did pick up some photos here and there which you will see shortly. i decided to return because school, well my year 12 camp, is less than a week away, and i though it right to post before the first day. just a small sentimental thought here but just to think of next week, will be the last first day of school, if that makes sense. its going to be a first of "lasts" for the rest of the year. its a very nice feeling.
well anyway, photos! note i wont be able to update you on everyyytthing, i'll just bring up the significant events.

this was at Crown casino, i think on the 27th dec. i loved this place as a child, still do.

 i thought this skyline looked nice, same day as 27th

 at  night on the 27th, this was after some really cool fire displays.

oh yeah, on the 26th, day prior to the the photos above, 26th boxing day sales. went to knox city at 7am with my mum and younger brother(my dad opted to sleep in) to make sure we could get our hands on what ever we wanted, and what ever our wallets allowed, luckily knox wasnt swarmed during the early hours. once we got there we split up to go wherever we desired. great day, i bought a few pieces of, previously, high quality clothing; shirts, tshirts, cardigan, belt(i cant be bother pulling out the clothes i bought to take a photo of). we searched the stores from 7am to around 10am.

come new years eve, i hadn't really planned anything, which was the plan. i just wanted to spend it with my family at home as i did for nye2011. though my friend invited me to another friends(whom lives nearby) nye party, i politely declined for i, out of all honesty, had no desire to see them on such an occasion. for that matter, i didn't want to see anyone i knew during the holidays at all, if i could help it. distancing myself from my friends was the general plan for the two months, i feel entirely at peace when i do; peace was something i craved nearing the end of 11', proof from the second term holidays when i was mourning the end of harry potter. meaning i rarely visit any social network, let alone a video game.

15th jan waiting for studio ghibli's recent works; Arriety to begin, by myself...

forever alone! but it was such a beautiful film, I RECOMMEND IT!
on the same day, right after Arriety, i watched The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo(by myself) which was, very intense and incredible, another great direction by David Fincher, a few scenes were hard to watch though(not for the faint hearted). rooney mara was such a stand out from the film, more so than her small role in David Fincher's Social Network. Definitely recommend it!

fast forward to today, three and a bit days away from camp/first day of year 12. in my days solitude during these holidays, i've had a great deal of time to think about my approach towards year 12, and i think i'm in a mindset which is entirely different to from previous and a very focused on at that. after a recent discussion with my cousin, who recently graduated from year 12 and accepted into university, the chat really inspired me to give my best effort and more. fact is that i really want to achieve a good ATAR and entry into university, to make me proud of myself and most of all my parents, them most of all because of their non-oppressive approach to raising me up and non-forcefulness towards study/school, i think studying hard and achieving an excellent result is a way to show that their methods had not been done in vain, another way to thank them i suppose.

the days of where i spent hours with video games are gone, long gone. 

alright that's enough school discussion. now i'd like to turn your attention to something that happened to me very recently, how recently? last night. where? in a dream. the following may sound crazy to some. also note that i've never in my life had a girlfriend or intimacy with a girl.

(im rather shy)

italics to show its importance!

so last night i had a dream(as people do) of the same subject of previous dream; night before last and the night before that, this morning i recalled vaguely and clearly(at the same time) that it involved me and a cute girl(i don't recall a name) near the same age as me, of asian ethnicity, like me, in a relationship, boyfriend girlfriend. now last night was the clearest i could remember of all the nights before that, and the feelings were the clearest. now what happened in the dream was pretty clear too, i think we were walking around chadstone(of all places -.-) and at one point i held her hand and she did the same to which then our eyes met. the feeling was indescribably amazing. after that i remember taking her to a family gathering and introducing her to my aunts, uncles, grandparents, parents and cousins(who are all real in life). some funny/strange stuff happened with an aunt but i can't remember clearly. we then appeared to be walking toward a dock around night, nothing dangerous looming in the shadows, just peaceful movement of the sea, during the walk i think i said some mushy stuff about ...(iiiii don't think i'll be disclosing this part) and some reassurance, reasons why i said it i cannot recall. we then sat on a bench talking and holding hands. a while later i heard my mind saying "yes its all real! i actually have a girlfriend!".

and everything began to disappear the sea, the dock and her. 

then i was greeted by the sunlight on my face, i was alone again. i sat up utterly disappointed to realise it was all fake, it was all a dream; a disappointment i have come to familiarise myself with over the past few days. it was the first real feeling of what i can only assume as real proper love, mostly from the hand holding. though i'm probably wrong, i don't know what it should feel like. 

this just reminds me of how much a sucker i am for 'love', a couple of days ago i had thought to leave this stuff until after year 12 for a serious relationship, but what i felt from holding hands with my dream girl(?) is something i really want to feel again, but... i don't know...

main reason for this post was to talk about my dream.

i think i'll leave it at that, i'll make sure to blog again before school begins.

until next time. 

day356. 10 50pm

by golly do i love the feeling of christmas, though strangely enough i don't really celebrate it i still really enjoy the christmas cheer. coming from an asian background celebrating christmas aren't the most common thing to do unfortunately. still i can't help but get caught up in all the holiday cheer.
there are a few things that makes it feel like christmas(to me), fair warning the list is fairly odd; christmas themed cooking shows programs, shopping center christmas overhead music, houses and city streets dressed up in an assortment of christmas decorations and the odd neighbor fireworks show.

upon some pre-boxing day sale scouting i was completely urged to buy this.

(even though i said i wouldnt, to save up for the 26th)

this will not turn into a fashion blog... i think

i think it's really nice and it was on sale, rrp $79 discounted to $45. i'm also rather found of the many shades of blue, they were scarce in numbers so i decided to go through with the purchase, when i mean scarce; this shirt was one of two. perfect fit too.

speaking of the boxing day sale, my parents thought that since we don't celebrate christmas(they don't have anything against it, it's just the hastle) they might as well give me and my brother some money to buy what ever on boxing day working as a substitute for christmas presents. presents or not, i wanted clothes regardless, so i was quite content with this, quite. though next year i would like to see our family, as a whole, to celebrate the annual festive holiday.

on the contrary, this christmas day there is going to be a family gathering, but completely un-christmas-y reasons. it's just a farewell dinner for my uncle(mothers uncle), whom is leaving for veitnam with his family very soon, a select few siblings of my mothers very large family are getting together. getting caught up in all of the christmas-themed cooking shows i've decided to bake a cake/loaf, i though i may as well since it's christmas on top of another occasion. i've chosen to bake a blueberry and cranberry cake/loaf, though an altered version to the original(blueberry and banana), i though cranberry would be a much more christmas-y ingredient in the rather basic dessert. i'll take photos of the process and result, i do doubt my baking skills seeing as this would be the first, still the method is simply toss em' together and pour into baking tray.

until next time... and a very happy christmas to you all.

day351. 6 54pm

so a few posts back you might recall that i said i wanted to be healthier or something along those lines.
well i thought this should be a good time to update you on that. if you knew me personally, you might( i hope) notice a difference with me, weight wise at least.

ever since late august of this year i've put myself on a fairly strict diet with frequent excercise. it hasn't been all smooth, there have been some irregular days or weeks where i do tend to break my diet with unhealthy foods and whatnot, though more recently it's been getting better. i would like to announce, undramatically i hope, that at the present time i've lost a total of 13kg(more or less). it's a fairly big achievement(to me) i think because there have been many times in the past where i've tried loosing weight but have broken the diet at some point, though this time round it's been the longest i've stuck to it and will continue to. i've still got a fair way away, i hope i can reach my goal before the end of the holidays.

in comparison to my 13kg heavier self; clothes fit me better, dropped a few sizes, old clothes begin to get too big, i feel much more confident, self-esteem boost. on another note ever since actually started loosing weight i've been interested more in fashion/clothes; more so in korean/asian styles, though i normally have insufficient funds to purchase clothes i browse through. although a few weeks ago i bought these from ebay.

yes those are non-perscripted glasses, hate me all you want for it but i like em'. the glasses are sitting on a cardigan and next to that is a casual vest, if you are wondering.

until next time

day348 7 28pm

over the month-gap there have been a few things i think i should update on. (note this is all going to be chronologically ordered)

with the exam period over we were left with a week of rest before our year 12 preparatory program, this is what i spent bits of it doing.

you know how i play guitar right?(this will all make sense soon) and have for a few years now. though i've decided to pick up piano, again. yes there was a time when i played piano, well it was really keyboard but the same thing applies. this was way before i started guitar, matter of fact i was playing the keyboard during the fifth year(2005) of my primary school days; taking lessons from the schools music program/course. i played for about a year to which i then stopped taking the lessons. for reasons i cannot remember. we also purchased a decent keyboard back when i(my brother also) still played the instrument.
here's a photo of it sitting in our garage, gathering dust.


very pleased to find the contents within the box not incredibly dusty and creepy-crawly-less. not too shabby having the dust all cleaned off.
though i am finding it difficult rediscovering the skills necessary to play. i'm making slow progress but progress none the less.

so the preparatory program set for the year 12s, consisted of the unit outlines and holiday homework distribution from each of the five subjects, in other words waste of time and a further delay to our well deserved holidays. okay that's the last of the school related stuff. only until yesterday i hadn't planned on when i would be tackling the holiday homework, i was thinking that i would be best to head into 2012 with a good idea of what is ahead of me, my end of year grades weren't what i expected of myself which was another incentive to work harder for year 12. so the plan was this.

the tough part is finding the motivation to do it. what's more irritating is i need to catch up on accounting, seeing as i'm only picking it up in year 12 due to insufficient numbers required to run a subject i was undergoing. same thing with visual communication. though i think i'm pretty good at that kind of subject. on that note, i have picked up drawing again; i haven't been drawing much but i think i've been inspired to do so again, what exactly i cannot exactly specify. i know i'm not doing a great deal of explanation. i also purchased an A3 visual diary which i need to complete the holiday homework.

i can't really remember much of the gap i left from blogging. even though i said there were loads to talk about. i probably can't remember. on a final note i recently(when i mean recently i mean the recent monday) got a hair cut, i forgot to take a photo before so you'll just have to take my word for how scrappy my hair was before. this is pretty drastic, in my eyes at least. but to say the lease i'm very pleased with it. very. behold!

this is probably the first clear photo on this blog of my face. if you have been wondering the mind behind this blog, here you go.
hopefully you've found this post rather informative.

until next time

day347. 8 20pm (holy crepes it's almost 365; new years)

yeah remember how i said there would be an increase of frequency for blogging, with exams completed and all. it's just that i haven't been compelled to do so, until now that is; compelled out of boredom. though at the end of this brief hiatus i have accumulated a lot things i think i should update you "rabid" readers about. which is where i am afraid i must say it will have to wait until tomorrow. it's just i haven't the time tonight. not to worry, it's not like you won't see another post for a few weeks after this one.
though i'll offer you a teaser in return for your patience. i recently got a hair cut(very different from the original) and there will be a photo. there! consider yourself TEASED!!

until next ti... tomorrow :P

day314, 10 55pm

ahhhh as you can tell by the title of this post that I AM FREE OF EXAMS! it feels so good to have the burden of study and expectation lifted. since exams are over and i have no more classes until our year 12 prep program thing i can watch all the korean variety shows i want! and more blog posts, definately.

a study free room

until next time