day304, 3 52pm

i know whenever i say 'quick update' it tends to go beyond half a page. well don't worry this will be real quick.
today was the beginning of my year 11 end-of-year exams, which was for general maths. i had studied a few days in advance, revising bits between days ensuring that i go into this examination confident and prepared, not bewildered and terrified. and it worked! study actual works. overall, i think i did very well. there were a couple of questions i just couldn't answer but apart from that i felt confident. my VET IT and physics exams are within three days(on thursday).

this is what happens to a room when it is exam week(s). though im being over dramatic heh, this is just one corner of my room.

oh yeah kathy doesn't go on facebook very often so it's very hard to contact her. though whenever i do the conversation is very intellectual.

anyway, back to studying ^^
















until next time

day300, 8 33pm

i apologise for the absence of photos from my day to day life, it's not like i carry a camera around me.
but i will try.

even though i should be revising for my year 11 exams that begin on monday, i thought i'd just pop down a few thoughts and updates. here it goes.

for one i'd like to update you guys and gals on the situation with kathy. i decided that i would add her on facebook, after consulting a friend about this. a day went by and nothing, i assume she wouldn't be online often and she would be busy with university work. so i sent a message via facebook just to remind her whom this in her midst, adding her. a day later, to my relief she accepted and progressed to reply hours later. we are message each other when we have the time, updating so on. i'm just happy i can talk to her once more, i feel as if we have so much in common. and not to worry folks, i'm not obsessed. if nothing more comes from this light friendship i am happy to be friends.
oh yeah speaking of which, i didn't get the job at Village Cinemas. :( nor did kathy(which she told me).
funny thing is we both reacted the same ways, frantically applying for other jobs. cute.

second. a couple of days ago was the last assembly/day of school and as a student at my school for the year 12s(that could've been worded better). the year 11s also got to watch this final assembly for the year 12s, why? i do not know. since i am a year below, i had nothing to be sad about nor happy about(other than progressing to my final year of schooling).
but i discovered the entire experience had a very profound effect on me. it was almost like an epiphany. there was a highlight reel of the year 12s year which they played, it was quite nice to watch, and to know i would be there within a year was daunting. i kept thinking to myself 'i could only imagine what the year 12s must be thinking right now'. because this end would mark the first day of the rest of your life, and there's the likelihood of losing contact with many friends, there would no longer be a routine to follow, love it or hate it; you become accustomed to such things and begin to get attached.
when i meant epiphany, i really did. at the end, i was thinking i must get as much as i can out of next year. it will be my final year and i must get the best memorable experience out of year 12. i stand by that. because it will be the last time i get to do any of this.
and to tell you guys im terrible at saying goodbyes or farewells, the end of harry potter being an example.

what i can imagine for next year, to the barest is that the emotions can be related to year 6. leaving primary school. but not progressing to more schooling but more or less to independence.

i would like to mark this as a turning point to my outlook on my school life. if i continue my blog, which i hope i do, i would like to write a post today next year, regarding the end to my schooling. it will be nice to see how far i have come from today til next year.

until next time

day296, 7 06pm

if you have been paying attention today was my first job interview, it was for a casual position at the Village Cinemas at Glen. at first it was incredibly nerve racking, one; it involved group activities, two; i didn't know what to expect. even waiting was frightening.
so what i mean by group activities is there were other applicants, we were ushered into a room before the one-on-one interviews. the activities involved scenarios and role playing them out. being a bad public speaker, and horrendous actor i was fairly nervous though being in a room with people whom i didn't know helped ease the nerves. the interviews came after not before we were ushered out of the room to await individual interviews. i think my interview went okay, reflecting on what i said i feel i could've done better. it was said they would email the failed applicants and call the successful ones. oh yeah, what was interesting was that they told us around 25 of us(applicants) were chosen out of roughly 302 initial applicants. i mean, whoa!

okay the more interesting stuff!
during the wait, this is before the group activities, a cute asian girl(by looks i thought she was around my age, though it turned out i was wrong) came up to me(judging based on her attire she was here for the interviews too) and asked if this was the place to await the assessment. i replied yes. i expected that would be the last thing she would have said to me, but to my amazement; no.
moments after she engaged into conversation with me. i forget what we exactly said early on, but it was related to age, names, the job and, awesomely, harry potter. her name being Kathy, there was a three year gap between our ages. the conversation only stopped when it was time to go into the assessment room.

we sat on the same table, completed the scenario and presented to the rest of the applicants, managers/workers included. when it was time to exit the room and await out individual interviews was when the conversation between Kathy and I resumed. we discussed holidays, school, harry potter, jobs, interests, music, and whatever came to mind and whatever that held a conversation. the only downside was that there were some lengthy/short pauses between each topic, so there was little 'chemistry' if you will. i attempted to hold eye contact as long as my brain would allow, in hope i would come across confident, whether it worked or not i do not know. as time ticked by we had less to talk about and there were longer pauses, long enough to be awkward. at least i wasn't doing all the asking, she had a fair share to query too. as the numbers waiting dwindled down i knew that Kathy would soon be in her interview, and i would no longer be able to talk to her. during these pauses i contemplated whether i should ask for her number or some form of contact, alas, i did not. seeing as she was not entirely enthusiastic about talking. until there were very few of applicants around us Kathy was beckoned forward for her interview, while i was left waiting, i pulled out my phone and searched her name on facebook, considering whether i should add her or not. five minutes or so later Kathy came striding around the corner with a smile, i caught her eye and asked the difficulty that awaited me, she said it was easy and gave her farewell, she looked like she was in a rush so i replied with a goodbye and a smile. as i was left alone i sighed and was left to contemplate with the "what ifs". sigh.

i was also thinking maybe my age made me less attractive? my age which made her want to talk less?
i really hope it was not that.

i'm still left wondering, should add her on facebook? should i? please give me some suggestions!
note, if you have been reading my blog for a long time you would know i am incredibly awkward around pretty girls and girls in general. and in most cases, do not engage in conversation. this felt very different, Kathy made me feel calm and collected.
i was surprised how relaxed and calm i was, i didn't stutter, mumble, turn rosy red or anything repulsive. i'm not sure if there was definite chemistry, but i do want to talk to her again. and there is some attraction there, not by looks but by what we conversed about, there's some distinctive compatibility. we thought similarly, since she is in her first year of university so we discussed the end of year 12, she thought that it meant the end of a few friendships because of no communication, did i not think that in a previous blog post? if not then i have thought about it thoroughly and we both are big harry potter fans that think alike.

during my time with Kathy i couldn't help but think some of this was fate, like this was meant to be?(cornnyyyy) but that is debatable. she may not have thought likewise, but i like to think that it was fate. would you consider it as fate? or something similar to it?
i really hope i see her again, hopefully by any luck, she and i will be working together at Village Cinemas. or another chance to bump into her, just to strike up another engaging conversation.
:/

until next time.

day295, 8 25pm
yipee! one week of school left! (though we have to come back after exams for 2 weeks of unit 3 bloody 'ell).  year is coming to a close, can't wait for the holidays. 

a very nice weekend so far, went to into the city with a friend, Harry, and bought a new pair of shoes. CONVERSE beeetch, until recently i've become more fond of the brand. anyway here's what i got.

(that is a photo i actually took, i kept my promise of adding real photos, not that its a big deal)

Yeah they're really nice, perfect fit and all. funny story how i got this, well not that funny but i'll tell you anyway.

so the initial plan was to go to the DFO right outside of southern cross station/on spencer street. found the shop(authentic factory outlet), searched the converse section of the shop for the shoes above, when i found them there were no sizes appropriate for my rather large feet. i asked one of the workers present and said their store had no pairs of shoes my size left, the guy said he could check their other nearby store in south warf DFO for stock via their store-wide database.
There were no 11s but i opted for the alternative of 10s, luckily the other store had a few pairs, a phone call later the worker said i had a pair reserved under my name and we were off! harry told me that south warf wasn't far which was excellent, we walked and discussed the collaboration for a comic series we are to begin with our other friends.

NOSTALGIA TIME!

it to our misdirection we ended up in crown casino, we only realized this was the wrong way when we were far within the casino, during our mislead trail i stumbled upon a very familiar place within crown. It was a place my family and i use to go when i was a 'wee fella'(child), it had been a incredibly long time since i had been there, coming back(mistakenly) as a more matured teenager was strange. so many memories flooded my head. it was truly amazing because it seemed as if that specific area was untouched, as if a day hadn't passed since my last time there. it was a truly nostalgic feeling, truly. i kept telling harry about coming here as a child so often with my family, i was amazed.

anyway we got out of there into the pouring outdoors and walked in the direction of south warfs DFO. found the AFO store, tried on the shoes, perfect fit! an exchange of money and shoes later we left for lunch. blah blah blah.

harry, being harry, needed more art supplies. we left for a store near RMIT university(melbourne central) and found this most peculiar art supply store(Melbourne artist supplies). It was such a cool place located in a little street, it was unmissable due to the graffiti-ed front. being around art supplies really got me inspired start drawing again since it had been such a long time, too long.
harry purchased some arty goods and both agreed it was time to head home.

after a long and nostalgic day i was home, not before seeing a cute female on the same tram.

wow i just realized how boring half this sounds, at least the nostalgic part was nice.
until next time

day289, 8 03pm

lately i've been thinking of year 12, only because its a few months away(i'm in year 11 if you've been paying attention). not about how hard i will have to work but more so mid-2012 onward. yes it is very early to begin thinking about such things but it's difficult not to. thinking about it now makes me feel somewhat nostalgic, if that's appropriate, because it seems similar to year 6, does it not?(that aside from all the stress that awaits me next year). well it might just me then. you part take in activities for the last time, stuff like that, i'm not terribly descriptive unfortunately, so it will be hard for you to imagine that.
oh!that's right i have english language homework... eh, it can wait.
and you wonder where all the A grades have been coming from. ;)

i guess i should fill all(1-5 peoples) you in on "what is up".
 
i've been listening to more of Girls Generation(kpop) recently, i don't know why! but it's so damn nice and uplifting!

i actually applied for a opening position at Village Cinemas(glen waverley) and last week received an email telling me i have a job interview, which is next week sunday. which is soooooo damn awesome to say the least. and about time might i add. dress code: smart casual, i think i can handle that(cardigan, button-up shirt + skinny tie and obviously pants(can't forget that, or maybe i will!)).

the first week of term 4 has been, so far, nothing short of chaos and terror(for most people that is, me included). year 12s have given themselves the liberty to cast an egg or two upon unsuspecting non-year 12s(personally i haven't experienced this, yet). and recently from their cars, note: if there's a P plate displayed, hide by god hide.
to be honest the remaining week and a bit of the year 12s presence should be somewhat fun. i enjoy the prospect of running for my-desire-to-be-dry. it similar to a game of tag but with eggs.

we(year 11s) only have nine days of schooling left(we don't go to school unless we have an exam) until exams. this is soooo great! i've already planned most of my holidays, to stay away from all means of contact with my friends(also stay away from gaming), it's an odd thing to do but i really just want to be away from presence of others for the entirety of the holidays. need to figure some things out.

that's enough of updating you on my life so i really should do this homework or suffer the wrath of my english language teacher. oh yeah, im thinking i should start posting photos of random crap i get up to along with these posts, this blog would be significantly more enjoyable with the addition(i think), i know i do when i read other blogs. until next time.

day284, 7 06pm.

you know k-pop? I really disliked it some few months ago. And for strange and catchy reasons I enjoy it now, only two songs though! don't get me wrong, indie-british-rock is still my favourite genre of music but these two tracks were incredibly easy on the ears.
if you are wondering which k-pop group, it's quite a popular girl group. Girls' Generation/SNSD.
the tracks being Kissing You and Girls Generation. AND ONLY THOSE TWO! Ya GET IT?! 
actually I only began listening to them when I saw this really funny korean game(kind of) show; Running Man(ep64). the girls that participated were shoooooo cutttte and entertaining.
my favourite SNSD member is Seohyunnnn, cuteness levels over 9000, though I'm also very fond of YoonA, whom is just as cute :3


excuse the absence of proper grammar, just a moment of illiteracy. just that SNSD are shooooo cuttte ;3 dammit man, pull yer self together!

day283, 7 44pm
Clearly I have been neglecting my blog, I haven't been as stimulated to blog as I once were. Fair warning I won't be blogging as frequently from here on.
On another note.(This has nothing to do with girl problems! dammit!)
I don't understand why the people around want to help me, I really just want to be left alone.
Right now I just don't want to speak to them, if I can help it. At the moment I desire loneliness, I find it somewhat nice, it allows me to think clearly about my current thoughts. 

why can't they respect that and not be meddlesome fools.

for the record I am NOT depressed! far flipping out, whenever I express somberness or blankness, apparently and that, in their minds, passes off as depression. They honestly need to revisit the dictionary. heh, and they ask why I don't feel social towards them...